The Past

    Just like any other normal person, I can’t help but look back on my past. Past relationships, past friends, past experiences. It all adds up on my mind and I realize that maybe we live too much in the past. Does our past really define us? I’ve never really been a firm believer in everything happens for a reason, until this year. My faith has grown tremendously in the last few months and I realize now that maybe He does have a plan for all of us. It might not be our plan, but it’s one that works.
    I used to be one of them...the people that live in the past. I still look back on my past and wish I could change things, but that’s all it is, wishing. Making a wish is like waiting for rain to fall in a drought, you never know if it’s going to come true. The past, defines each and every one of us. Our past, our decisions , our mistakes defines who we are, and without it we would all be the same.
    Recently, i’ve started to realize that living in the past will get you no where. If one always has the mindset of “ I wish i’d done this” or “ if this happened..” then we wouldn’t really get anywhere. I never really looked toward my future much , besides the fact of what I’d eat for dinner that night or plans for the weekend. In recent months though, I’ve started to take what comes at me and plan for the future. God didn’t plan for us to always look back, He wants us to look forward. He has a plan.
        It’s hard, extremely hard, to not hold on to what you love. We all know the feeling of when you lose something, and your heart literally hurts. It’s hard, to not hold on to memories, of good times, of bad times and everything else in between.
    My past, your past, all defines who we are. People, however, don’t see that part of you until they get to know you. It’s so intriguing to me, when you are talking to someone, and you can tell their past is unfolding before you. When people let down those walls, and let someone in to see who they are. It’s like a movie playing in your head. Everyone has a different story to tell and the ending is left open.
    The ending is the most important. How YOU write your ending. How YOU change your future. Whenever you hear the saying “the opportunities are endless” don’t ever let yourself settle. I can tell you one thing from experience, settling with the way things are will get you no where. You have to dream big. Even if no one listens to your dreams, or they sound absurd, you won’t get very far if you don’t dream big. So here I am, laying here, with seven thousand different thoughts in my head about my past, but more importantly , my future. Where will He take me next?